Why.
Do people like to lie to me even when I’m talling the truth. Apparently so. I don’t understand why they do. Kay, let me explain. Well last night at around 4 am I heard a loud slam then my father started to freak out. I don’t know why. But ya. Then this morning I came down and asked what it was… And my reply? ” What yelling? I think you were dreaming.” Bull! It woke me up. I remember it was 4:02 !! Wow people think I can’t handle it. Its dumb. But w.e its not a big deal.
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Feelings and Thinking.
Do people consider the feelings of other when they do something stupid. Like drink, smoke, attempt suicide… I don’t think they do. How many people actually know what you are feeling? They don’t. Unless they tell you then you are free to think what you want. I always think the worst when I do something stupid, but I do it anyways… Like if I was about to bungee jump I would think that I am going to die and not see the people I care about. I don’t like thinking this way but it is just the way I am. When people ask me what I am feeling I normaly tell them that I’m fine. Biggest lie in the world. If you ever hear me say I’m fine ask me again… I think differently then other people, like I said I think the worst, but I think about the way I feel about that and how other people feel. I think about the possibilities and the outcomes. I normally think before I do. I worry way too much and I am always concerned… There is no way of stopping that, but I am trying. I think all adults are untrustworthy and that most all people are. But no one can change that about me. I hate when people try to change me… Erg it pisses me off. But anyways. Feelings are a big thing for people, without them who would we be…
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Fighting.
To me fighting is the worst. Mainly because of memories, but whatever. What is the point of fighting? To me there is no point. To me it seems like people who are always fighting or wanting to fight are just trying to make themselves seem stronger. To make people feel weak. This is just my opinion. Fighting leads to many things, divorce, death, pain, guilt, wars, emotional hurt, these are only a few. You only have one life to live… Why do people spend it fighting with others… Do they know it hurts the ones that cares most about them… Fighting to me is like having 4 stone cold walls close in on you on not having a way to get out, because if you do back out you seem like a wimp also your giving the other person a bigger ego. That’s exactly what this world needs, people with bigger egos.. Ya right. It should just end, people fighting. It hurts.. This is coming from personal expierience… I wasn’t even the one fighting. It affects everyone around you. Don’t let anger get the best of you.
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Memories
Memories aren’t always in your mind. But there are some that you just can’t get out. For me its the ones with my friends in winnipeg. Like last halloween when we followed around micheal myers for like 30 min. Or the time on junk day where me Cheyenne and Lucas went and ended up with new clothes on and a baby stroller (:
Or even the time when we were all lying in the field. Oh how I miss Winnipeg so so much. I miss my friends… How close we were, family. Of course there were bad memories, like when a bitch came to our school and fucked everything up… Friendships, relationships… Things were different. I miss the days when we would walk down all the way down Portage ave just to get a slurpee, or pizza :P or just to go to the bus stop after being stalked by a mental patient lol.
These memories keep playing in my head over and over. But when you move, its suddenly like you barely exist to some of the people. I want to go back, back to grade 8 and redo what I did, relive the memories. To have never moved at all. I miss winnipeg, eventually I will be back, even just for a bit.
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Lollipops turn into cigarettes.
The innocent ones turn into sluts.
Homework goes in the trash.
Mobile phones are being used in class.
Detention becomes suspension.
Soda becomes vodka.
Bikes become cars.
Kisses turn into sex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helmet?
When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?
Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth
and mom was your hero?
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
War was only a card game.
And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.
When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut.
The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees,
and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
And we couldn’t wait to grow up.
CAILLOU !
I’m just a kid who’s four,
each day i grow some more,
i like exploring, I’m caillou.
so many things to do, each day there’s something new,
i’ll share them with you im caillou
my world is turning,
changing each day!
with mommy and daddy
and finding my way
growing up is not so tough
‘cept when i’ve had enough
but there’s lots of fun stuff,
i’m caillou
caillou
caillou,
I’m caillou.
That’s me.
Friends.
Everyone has friends. Plain and simple. Yes friends come and go. Like bubbles. They are with you for a bit, but then they are gone. Good friends are like touchable bubbles…. They are with you longer then normal bubbles, but eventually deflate. There is one thing I don’t understand with friends… Why is it when they promise you they will not drift from your life, yet they do once you move or even go to a different school. Since I have moved I have lost contact with a lot of people ): It is kinda sad… These people were once my best friends… My family. And now they don’t talk to me… Is there something wrong with me? Were they just waiting for me to leave? Was I actually there friend at all? Questions never answered…
Those school days are gone.
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About me
I am not a normal person. Sadly, everyone is. I worry a lot and do have problems but who doesn't. I love my friends. Nuff Said.
